斯念

I got this sms from Ying Khiam. I found it very meanigful and thus,i'm penning it here for sharing. (:


喜欢和爱是不同的。


喜欢他，可能是因为他为自己所做的一切。
爱他，却从不会计较为他所做的一次。


喜欢他，可能只是因为他的性格很不错。
爱他，却连他那坏得离普的性格都很喜欢。


喜欢他，会劝他不要淋雨。
爱他，却愿意陪他一起被雨淋。


喜欢他，可能只是因为他的好。
爱他，却连他的缺点都能接受。


喜欢他，可能只是因为你愿意聆听他自己的倾诉。
爱他，连他对你的抱怨都能接受。


喜欢他，可能需要很多很多的理由。
爱他，是不需要理由。


爱就是爱。


I did not sleep well last night. My pillow had a spot which was wet. I tried to close my eyes and fall asleep,but to no avail. All the memories flashed back. The good and the bad. I was smiling,and at the same time,I could feel warm tears rolling continuously down my cheeks. Oh my god. It was then that I came to realize how much I missed you.

You have changed. Like how a caterpillar evolved into a butterfly. Where did that silly boy that had once made me so happy vanished to? Yes,you have turned very unfeeling and very cold now. You seem to have many frustrations running through your mind. So different from the carefree and cheerful boy I knew in the past.

But somehow,i still can sense the existence of that little boy in you,trapped under many many frustrations and unhappiness. Maybe you have been hurt by someone else,and that explains that change in you.

Reminiscing the past...


“你很累是吗？”
“没有。”
“Then 为什么你关眼睛？”
“ 因为我不要看到你的脸。”

“等下晚上，你可以打给我吗？hee.”
“ k.”
“Harlo? Okay,我打给你了,bye bye.”
“Huh? 什么？”

“你懂这种bag,只有Sec 2到Sec 3的人带吗?”
“这种东西只有一个人会做，而那个人，就是我妈妈。而我妈妈是一位auntie.”
“她穿什么jeans? 你穿什么jeans? 要比就比到完。”
“你可以不要一直sms吗？”
“朋友sms我，我就reply咯。”

"What did i do wrong? Why did you treat me like that?"
"I could have treated you worser but I controlled okay."

"You have a girlfriend already is it? Please tell me. I want to know the truth."
"Yes."
"I hope you will wish us well,and not curse us."
"That's not what i meant. =("

"Don't make me kick you outta my life."

"Who are you for me to answer for your stupidity?"
"It doesn't take much for me to fall for a girl. If you're not my type,let's not force it."


第一道彩虹，你真的很难爱。

因为你不爱我，我以下想对你说的一切，一定会让你觉得很恶心，很反感。但是，我还是想让你知道。。。

我爱你

我要做你身边的那个女人。我要你带路，而我在你背后支持你。我要与你承担你的不快乐，与你分享喜乐。让你伤心和烦恼减一半，快乐加倍。

以前，我们曾经有过快乐的回忆。我曾经有看过你笑得很开心。


This quote was from one of my good friend,Venessa's facebook:

"The best happiness is not what others have given you.
"It's the happiness that you gave to this special someone,and receive his or her smile after that. (: "


但是现在，我再也不可以带给你快乐了，我再也不可以弄你笑，再也看不到你的笑容。

因为我知道，你已经对我豪无感觉。

对，事实的确就是那么的残酷。

即使我有多么的舍不得你，即使我有多么的爱你，我也很清楚，爱是不可以勉强的。

所以，我真诚的希望你会找到那个爱你，而你也爱她的女人。 因为你是一个值得被爱的男人。

第一道彩虹，将来，不管发生什么事，答应我，你会快乐的活下去。

好吗？