Every Sky Has Its Own Rainbow

What do you feel when you look up and gaze onto the plain blue sky,a rainbow is painted onto that sky,way up high?

To her,it puts a smile on her face. It cheers her up and makes her happy.

Her first rainbow did appear on her plain blue sky. Sadly,it did not linger on her sky for long. It faded over time and eventually vanished. Her first rainbow had left her sky. The colours that brightened her sky are all gone now. What's left behind now is her sky that was once plain blue.

Rainbows. Yes,they do cheer you up. But they do not linger on the sky for long. That's the sad truth. Is there such a thing as an eternal rainbow? Yes,they do exist,in fantasy. But unfortunately no,in reality.

However,once a rainbow appears on her sky,to her,it will always be there. When her rainbow fades,memories of her rainbow appearing on her sky and how it cheered her up will always be with her,burried deep down in her heart,but never to to be unearthed once again. Once burried,the memories are dead. They can never ever cheer her up or hurt her anymore. Those memories will just and only be plain memories,nothing else.

Thus,when the memories are dead,it leaves room in her heart to accommodate live memories of her second rainbow-that guy whom she will dote on and love wholeheartedly;that guy who will also dote on her and love her wholeheartedly and who will be able to give her that sense of security.

Indeed,rainbows are rare. But she believes her second rainbow will appear and take her away. Someday.

However,until love knocks on her door,let's not talk about rainbows.

斯念

I got this sms from Ying Khiam. I found it very meanigful and thus,i'm penning it here for sharing. (:


喜欢和爱是不同的。


喜欢他，可能是因为他为自己所做的一切。
爱他，却从不会计较为他所做的一次。


喜欢他，可能只是因为他的性格很不错。
爱他，却连他那坏得离普的性格都很喜欢。


喜欢他，会劝他不要淋雨。
爱他，却愿意陪他一起被雨淋。


喜欢他，可能只是因为他的好。
爱他，却连他的缺点都能接受。


喜欢他，可能只是因为你愿意聆听他自己的倾诉。
爱他，连他对你的抱怨都能接受。


喜欢他，可能需要很多很多的理由。
爱他，是不需要理由。


爱就是爱。


I did not sleep well last night. My pillow had a spot which was wet. I tried to close my eyes and fall asleep,but to no avail. All the memories flashed back. The good and the bad. I was smiling,and at the same time,I could feel warm tears rolling continuously down my cheeks. Oh my god. It was then that I came to realize how much I missed you.

You have changed. Like how a caterpillar evolved into a butterfly. Where did that silly boy that had once made me so happy vanished to? Yes,you have turned very unfeeling and very cold now. You seem to have many frustrations running through your mind. So different from the carefree and cheerful boy I knew in the past.

But somehow,i still can sense the existence of that little boy in you,trapped under many many frustrations and unhappiness. Maybe you have been hurt by someone else,and that explains that change in you.

Reminiscing the past...


“你很累是吗？”
“没有。”
“Then 为什么你关眼睛？”
“ 因为我不要看到你的脸。”

“等下晚上，你可以打给我吗？hee.”
“ k.”
“Harlo? Okay,我打给你了,bye bye.”
“Huh? 什么？”

“你懂这种bag,只有Sec 2到Sec 3的人带吗?”
“这种东西只有一个人会做，而那个人，就是我妈妈。而我妈妈是一位auntie.”
“她穿什么jeans? 你穿什么jeans? 要比就比到完。”
“你可以不要一直sms吗？”
“朋友sms我，我就reply咯。”

"What did i do wrong? Why did you treat me like that?"
"I could have treated you worser but I controlled okay."

"You have a girlfriend already is it? Please tell me. I want to know the truth."
"Yes."
"I hope you will wish us well,and not curse us."
"That's not what i meant. =("

"Don't make me kick you outta my life."

"Who are you for me to answer for your stupidity?"
"It doesn't take much for me to fall for a girl. If you're not my type,let's not force it."


第一道彩虹，你真的很难爱。

因为你不爱我，我以下想对你说的一切，一定会让你觉得很恶心，很反感。但是，我还是想让你知道。。。

我爱你

我要做你身边的那个女人。我要你带路，而我在你背后支持你。我要与你承担你的不快乐，与你分享喜乐。让你伤心和烦恼减一半，快乐加倍。

以前，我们曾经有过快乐的回忆。我曾经有看过你笑得很开心。


This quote was from one of my good friend,Venessa's facebook:

"The best happiness is not what others have given you.
"It's the happiness that you gave to this special someone,and receive his or her smile after that. (: "


但是现在，我再也不可以带给你快乐了，我再也不可以弄你笑，再也看不到你的笑容。

因为我知道，你已经对我豪无感觉。

对，事实的确就是那么的残酷。

即使我有多么的舍不得你，即使我有多么的爱你，我也很清楚，爱是不可以勉强的。

所以，我真诚的希望你会找到那个爱你，而你也爱她的女人。 因为你是一个值得被爱的男人。

第一道彩虹，将来，不管发生什么事，答应我，你会快乐的活下去。

好吗？

Tomorrow Will Be A Better Day. =)

From 14209. Till now,8 months had already passed. Why do those tears still roll down her cheeks every time she's alone at night? Move on? How she wish she could. So much easier said than done. Heard many of those comforting words. But really too bad,they can only act as painkillers. Yes,she can forgive. But really too bad,her memory is too good. She can't forget what he did and said to her. She really wants to forget,but she really can't. How she wish she could forget,then it wouldn't hurt her so much right now. Time can heal all wounds. Is that really true? She doesn't dare to be taken away,because she already had the phobia of her new rainbow not treasuring her.

It is okay if she did wrong,then he gives her the cold shoulder. She really did try to recall what sin she had commited. It puzzles her. What did she do to deserve that attitude from him?

She's afraid. The world is not as simple as it seems. There are many scheming big bad wolves in disguise out there,preying on innocent little lambs. And so she needs some time to grant access to the only one she trusts.

Sadly,after she takes the time that is essential,her rainbow had already moved on to another sky. Since he could do that so easily,it goes to show that she means nothing to him at all. He's not the least proud to have her as his girlfriend. His girlfriend is just like a silly little girl who doesn't know how to dress,unlike his friends,unlike the girl's best friend. So what if he loses her. So what. He won't feel a thing. That was how unimportant she was in his heart.

When she be herself,he doesn't like it. And so she tried to change and improve. But that made her really unhappy. What's wrong with being herself? She is like that. I'm sorry girl. The ugly truth is,he doesn't like you for who you are. He is only concerned with spotting your flaws.

His criticisms have so much effect in bringing her down. It made her feel so useless. But deep down,she clearly knows that,she's not.

If she doesn't fall for him,he can say the harshest words and do the harshest things to her. It will have zero effect in hurting her. However,if she falls for him,even the little mean things that he does and say will have 100% effect in hurting her to a great extent. So why did she fall for him and allow him to bully her? Tell me. Was she silly?

It took some time for her to realise that she really does like him. But when she ended up falling for him,he doesn't like her anymore. He doesn't want to give her warm hugs anymore. He doesn’t mind if another guy hugs her anymore. He doesn't want her anymore. He wants to leave her behind,and allow someone else to take her away. He wants to abandon her and move on to another sky because at the end of the day,he realised she wasn't his type. He realised she wasn't his type only after she had fallen for him. She can't possibly turn back and stop liking him completely after falling for him. It's irreversible. And after she had fallen for him,it disappoints and hurts her so much as he could forget her that easily. Move on to another sky that easily. Moving away from her is just like a breeze to him. Yes,that was really painful. Do you people understand how much that hurts? Does anyone out there really understand how that feels? No,you people don't. You're not her. How would you understand. How would anyone understand.But,what's the point of keeping him when his heart is not with her? What's the point? That's right. It's pointless. And so she reluctantly decided to let him go and leave her behind. Her best friend and one of her good friend told her that she doesn't like him. In fact,she loves him. How can that be true? What is like? What is love? It's intriguing. In the past, she liked him,but doesn't realize it. So what does it imply now? That she has unknowingly grown to love him in the dark?

So what if she loves him. He doesn't love her. Not even like her a single bit anymore. One sided love just hurts. Way too much.